Right now I’m at a dilemna with myself about what to do. I need to work out for at least 2-3 hours, and I want to spend time with my daughters, and just do nothing! So I talked to my coach- I messaged him and asked him what would he deem more important out of today’s workouts. Obviously I already assumed he was going to say both, but what I was really looking for was for him to say, “Don’t worry about it- just go home and relax”.
Is that realistic? Absolutely not. So I haven’t decided how I’m going to move forward, but I know that when I feel this way I need to just do it. I need to start the process. Get on the bike, or get in the pool- whatever it may be. And usually what happens is that tired funk that I’m in kind of dissipates over the course of the workout. I always think to myself on race day, when I’m 3-7 days in to my Deca, I’m going to feel just like I feel right now, and what will I do? And I know that I’m far from a quitter, so I guess as I type this I’ve actually answered my own question. I’m going to take my ass to the gym and get it done. But I wasn’t lying when I said I don’t want to do it. I just know that it needs to be done to create certain things in my life that I want to happen- healthier me, happier me, and stronger presence on race day. Does this mean that I don’t value the time spent with my daughters? Nope. It means I won’t go to bed as early as I hoped, but if it means time with them it’s totally worth it. I’ll be tired every day if I just have to stay up one extra hour to be with them and ask them how their day went or what’s going on with them. Or maybe ask the Munchkin if she’s been nice and been a good girl with mommy all day. She’ll do what she always does and ask mommy, “Mommy- have I been a good girl?” And hopefully she’ll get a positive response. But with having so many things going on in my life, I have to make adjustments on a daily basis. And that doesn’t mean that I don’t do anything- it means that I find a way to get it done. Today I was thrown a lot of things. I usually don’t work out at night that much, but I know that I will feel better about myself and that I will grow as an athlete by doing so and that if I have to set examples for my family or for my athletes it would be for consistency, discipline, and good health. So I’m on my way to the gym to knock out this bike and this run, and I’ll figure everything else out when I’m done. (Hey, that rhymes!) So next time you’re at the gym, or next time you don’t want to be there or you don’t want to go, remember your purpose. Don’t forget why you started in the first place, and let that be the motivation or the spark to get you started.